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I'm back!
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So after a much needed long hiatus, I'm finally back and I actively want to draw again. I fell out of love with art for a while, and it made me hate everything I made and I just wasn't progressing.
I have a few things I owe people that I'm going to get done soon, thank you for being so patient and I hope it's worth the wait considering my style has changed a lot, I don't know how to draw like I used to and I am sorry for this.
This year has been crazy and filled with changes that have made me progress in life, but also changes that have made me severely depressed. I'm in a huge rut right now, and I won't really go into it because there's a lot of personal stuff involved that I'd rather not post on the internet, but I feel I'm reaching a stage where I can finally start to move on. Coming to terms with loss, adult life, a bad breakup, mourning family, the stress of university, jobs etc. It may all sound like trivial things that everyone has to go through, but I'm genuinely overwhelmed. I'm not happy anymore, and I don't remember the last time I was happy to be quite frank.
Expect a lot of dark art, experimental pieces, adopts purely because I love making them, and just idk, less "canine" art and more "studies"?
For the past 8 months I was working as a tattoo apprentice, another reason for my absence, but having art as my profession made me absolutely despise the industry and it opened my eyes to a lot of flaws, people tracing other people's work and labelling it as theirs even though they deem to be "professionals"... It just sucks, and it made me not want to draw, especially seeing as my clientele would often come in wanting pre-existing Pinterest tattoos and would pay not for originality and talent, but a carbon copy of another artist's work. Maybe I'm overreacting, but it didn't sit well with me and as such I ended up leaving, I now work a normal job role working in the health industry, I'm a lot happier.
It's taken a lot for this spark to come back, and although the flame is small; it's better than nothing at all. Thank you to all of those who have been loyal and stayed and were patient in waiting for me to come back to finish the art I owe, sparrowii I am working on your ref currently and aim to get it posted this week as I have two days off.
Anywho, here's to a more positive outlook, trying to kick depression in the ass is hard but what I've gotta realise is a lot of people, including probably some of you reading this, have been through these emotions and reached the other side. You give me hope
I have a few things I owe people that I'm going to get done soon, thank you for being so patient and I hope it's worth the wait considering my style has changed a lot, I don't know how to draw like I used to and I am sorry for this.
This year has been crazy and filled with changes that have made me progress in life, but also changes that have made me severely depressed. I'm in a huge rut right now, and I won't really go into it because there's a lot of personal stuff involved that I'd rather not post on the internet, but I feel I'm reaching a stage where I can finally start to move on. Coming to terms with loss, adult life, a bad breakup, mourning family, the stress of university, jobs etc. It may all sound like trivial things that everyone has to go through, but I'm genuinely overwhelmed. I'm not happy anymore, and I don't remember the last time I was happy to be quite frank.
Expect a lot of dark art, experimental pieces, adopts purely because I love making them, and just idk, less "canine" art and more "studies"?
For the past 8 months I was working as a tattoo apprentice, another reason for my absence, but having art as my profession made me absolutely despise the industry and it opened my eyes to a lot of flaws, people tracing other people's work and labelling it as theirs even though they deem to be "professionals"... It just sucks, and it made me not want to draw, especially seeing as my clientele would often come in wanting pre-existing Pinterest tattoos and would pay not for originality and talent, but a carbon copy of another artist's work. Maybe I'm overreacting, but it didn't sit well with me and as such I ended up leaving, I now work a normal job role working in the health industry, I'm a lot happier.
It's taken a lot for this spark to come back, and although the flame is small; it's better than nothing at all. Thank you to all of those who have been loyal and stayed and were patient in waiting for me to come back to finish the art I owe, sparrowii I am working on your ref currently and aim to get it posted this week as I have two days off.
Anywho, here's to a more positive outlook, trying to kick depression in the ass is hard but what I've gotta realise is a lot of people, including probably some of you reading this, have been through these emotions and reached the other side. You give me hope
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